I didn’t run, I choose peace

A few days ago I was back in the village where I grew up  and where my daughters spent most of their childhood. They both live there again now.

My daughter asked, “Would you ever move back here?”

My answer was clear: No.

There are many reasons.

But the one that stood out was this: I’ve changed.

The village… not so much.

The streets look slightly different. New houses, new cars.

But the mindset? The same.

The judgment, the whispers. The obsession with others’ lives, the same.

I used to be “different” here.

And because of that  I was an easy target.

For a long time, I thought I had healed it. But what I had actually done… was go quiet. Stay just visible enough, not too much, not  too loud. Because when you’re visible, you’re vulnerable.

Until I saw it and when you do you can change it.

Moving  abroad wasn’t an escape.

It was a reclaiming. A decision to build a life and a frequency that wasn’t toxic. And it gave me everything ❤︎

But standing in that familiar place last week, I realized how I love people. I love deep connection. Real stories, eye contact.Seeing through someone else’s lens.

And I saw how high my guards had been for so long in my life.

Since my healing end date last May, I’ve developed a level of unbothered that feels like true peace.

It’s not that I don’t care  It’s that I care intentionally. Only the right things, the right people get my energy in a complete new way.

What shocked me most

was realizing how many toxic threads were still subtly woven in:

Clients. People who  call me their Friend.  Mentorship spaces that I had entered.

People who smile in your face

and whisper behind your back.

People who want to be near your light but don’t know how to love you.

And the truth is  even if you can’t see it, your nervous system feels it. It’s not normal. It’s not “just how it is.” It’s a choice.

And the relationship you have with yourself determines what you tolerate.

This is not the time in the world to stay in dynamics that drain you.

This is the time to stay clear.

To stay awake, to stay open  but only to what is true for you.

You don’t have to harden your heart to protect it. You just have to walk away from anything that poisons it and choose again.

Choose love that isn’t rooted in fear.

Choose connection that doesn’t gossip.

Choose people who make you feel home, not just seen.

Now more than ever your connection with yourself is the gatekeeper of your life.

Of your peace, of your power.

You don’t owe anyone your access. But you do owe yourself everything 💋

And then there’s Sem my dog.

Who teaches me without words how to stay soft. How to stay real. Unfiltered love 🌹